had a dream last night..
back to my childhood time...
when me and my cousins playing in bukit batok area....
while the adults were playing majong and playing cards
i noe i cant turn back time...but i'm so happy i had this dream last night... and i wish that i will never wake u from tt dream
i love the days when we playing monkey and banana??...dunno wad's the name of the game la...and catching,lots more silly games we played...was so funni...
playing basketball at the basketball court...rock climbing and miss the backstreet boys singing "shape of my heart"
this song always makes me think of terence,my sista,me and nic...singing at auntie evelyn house...
we were so mad about backstreet boys last time...and we rockclimb to the top and stand there and sing backstreet boys songs...treating that as backstreet boys plane..
the last time we went back there was this year first day of chinese new year...
but this time is different....we've grown up...so we just climb to the top and talk...about our funni things and silly things we did in our childhood.

really miss all those days alot...and now no more everysat family gathering
i just don understand why they have to do this...
why they have to break this family into half...
why still now they don know tt they are wrong..?
and why the others still cant forgive them??
money is evil...bcox of money...reletionship broken...(part of the reason)

last time the family feel so much with love
but now,is so empty...

but i'm really glad that me,terence and my sista still meet up sometimes during our holidays
everytime sure will ton de...and lots of non-stop topics to talk about...
always take the first train home....
really feel so happy and comfortable with them...even sharing thiings or telling them secret..
and we always believe that someday all of us will be back together and meet up everyweek...
and we are hoping this day to come soon...

3 years...ever since that day.....
i dunno the meaning of love....
now everything seems...so wrong...why they have to do this..?don they have feelings?and aint they guilty of wad they had done?

empty~lonely~lifeless~

Where is the love!?~//