Oh what mess
you've got the best of my heart
It broke and now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what shame
You know I didnt mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never ever move

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you
Ya i'm talking to you
You lost the love in bed
And now it's just dead
Cause it didn't mean a thing
Waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game
And ain't it a shame that it's just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm cryin' out
But I can't give in

I think you need some time by yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
All the things that we could change
(things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same

By Myself
I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
In my time machine


If i have time machine, i'll go back to afew years back time when i was young or a kid,
& i treasure everything and everyone around me.
Because i was a kid, i don know what's going on with all of them
all i can do is to solve the problem within us, kids.
but because we are a kids, we cant give comment, the last thing we can do is listen to what's going on outside the room. & inside our heart breaks when we know that we're not gonna get together every sat anymore.
MY CHILDHOOD!:'(
4 /3/2/1years back, SEC 1-4 days,basketball[my sec one days with the ville666 guys and my rumor guy in sec3...hahahaX quite funni], volleyball &
sec 2 hangout(jensen [the guy that sits beside me in class for the whole year,2004:D],michelle, justin, dewey, jessica, weichao, zhenying ,PeiPei[the nicest person i've EVER MET!& Very Pretty also:D], Zayer tint [the most charming guy]missed chatting on the phone with him also, stephaniel ,aikbin, TJ:D )
Sec 3 totally ruined my life, playing all days, no exams at all!!only final year! & some class test.
tt's why i'm so weak in my chem:( and my sec 3 results sux!but teachers still love me:D
InFAMOUS4E days!!, all the stoopid things we did in school..thinking back, hahahaX..really too crazy!!but thanks everyone in 4E'06 for all those crazy memories!!I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!
esp the 6 guys sitting with me for 2 years..:D
and mr simon gan for making us look like a idiot in class, singing & dancing with the poem of the day. i'll never forget you.LONDON BRIDGE IS FALLING DOWN!!:D
PE teacher(forgotten name), for loving our crazy class alot, and making us stand on stage during assembly to cheer:D shouting and cheering, making lots of noises during pe time when classes having lesson. always remember lots of people will stand by the window to watched us PE:))
knowing charmaine peh, the person who always pinch me:'(
sometimes i'll have really big and painful blueblack becox of her!!
but she's still a nice gal, my listener:D
I miss the days where my church frens went paradis centre for daytona every sunday:D
if i can go back to 2 years time, i will never let all those things to happen to us.
but i guess if all those things never happen, i'll never grow up.
Thanks for hurting.DUH!

Friday xiaozhu came to singapore, at bugis got his concert tix autograph, if purchase tix there, got free poster. I love that poster alot. but i already purchase my tix long long time ago.
Many people was there,more than 3000 people
i love his new haircut , his album gonna release soon and i gonna go pre-order on monday.
I hope i can go to his autograph session for his lastest album.
Seeing him having a great achievement, very happy for him!!
the only thing i don like is when i go his autograph seesion, have to queue for long long hours. but he's a nice chap, he will finish signing all:D
don even bother about the plane he's taking...hahahaX
i alSo love MR PIG!!!
the one person that can makes me laugh until stomach super pain!!
IF you need a good laugh, watch the video below, i love the second the most and the third!!
so fuNNy!

I think this jay chou MV is the best i've seen!

Become they are famous, people around the world love them, want to know everything about them, and they cant have own time doing the things on their own.

especially in their love life, now you know why alot of famous people are still single.

this video will show it all.

TuesDay!!!
Very busy day today!
had my BEG exam this morning..didnt study much, cox i felt asleep while reading my notes yesterday night.
exams end at 11am, pon the rest of the lesson and went home change & went to foot reflexology.
had birthday lunch with my family then now at my grandma house to visit her...
i'm gonna go chalet later...not going to sch tmr also...
been very stress this few weeks....so gonna take a break and have fun!!
and next week i'm having exams again..:'(

having my holidays after my last paper on the 7th December
i hope all this will end soon.


while on the way to my grandma house, i heard 1301(zhi ying wei ni)by zhang dong liang on the radio, why i called it 1301, becox is the code in my sec sch machine.
reminds me of my friends...and i thank god for all the people i knew in my sec sch...cox they are all really nice people...
I don have any ah beng, ah lian friends.....though one or two of them smoke...but they don teach me to smoke...they din ask me to try one. even though i was very bad during sec 1 & 2..i cant imagine what i will be if i din go to church that time.
sometimes i'll asked god, why i don look the same as i am inside.becox i really don look like who i really am inside. and why my friends all passed their N level and i failed MINE!!(not fail, but just din do well to promote to sec 5) i also told myself if i get 11 for my N level, i jump off the building.
i was really very sad on the 18th december 2006, the day i got my results. i wanted to cry at aloysius car, but i hold my tears.
back to youth camp, hiding myself in the room crying. all of them was having fun outside.
except sybil slping in the room. if ting din came in to the room, i'll be crying like hell.
then she text me jeremiah 29:11, this verse was once again appearing.
remind me of his promises.
"For i know the plan i have for u, plan to prosper you and not harm you, plan to give you a hope and a future."
so i was always telling myself, god makes me different. i am unique.because i am always diff from my friends.
friends sometimes do not understand me, but i din blame them.no one will understand me well, except god.
they may make fun of my religion, i know they don mean it intentionally, so i smile at them, hurting inside,telling god" forgive them father, they do not understand."
i may not be very holy, reading the bible everyday, but i love god alot.
i may not be good at words during prayer, but i mean everything at the bottem of my heart.
i admit i don dare to pray with peeple, maybe that's why i'm avoiding prayer meeting, HF and youth.
but if anyone had a prayer request, i'll hide myself in the room at night and pray for them.
this few months, i'm very empty inside, then i reliease how long i haven been doing my QT.
i hide myself from god and not been listening to what he wants to say.

"Take my five loaves and two fishes,
Do with it as you will, I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope this gift is not too small"


TO BE CONTINUE.......