hmm...i miss vanessa....she so long never go church le...
hope to see her soonn....she's so cute~esp when she smile~



wad am i now if i go russia 8 years ago for studies...
hmm...mayb i'll never know god.hahaX....lamelamelame=_=
mayb i will never know you~

PE today was fuN?...was asked to run 2 rounds...but in the end...we run more than tt....was caught cheating...then played hide and seek with mr liu...hahaX...so funni....so was very tired...played basketball after tt...my group won 2 match...hahaX..
yup took the lift up to class again after going to canteen...math...erm...teacher give the formula sheet for all topics...and hahaX...i think i found some of the missing pieces in my left brain...erm...the english teacher went to course and i revised my physics...the rest of my frens were playing cards...chemistry...erm..i scolded mr seah...he was so irritating...mr singh said tt i can listen to the mp3...and he asked me to keep...totally spoil my mood for studying...i first ever time scolding vulgarities.fuck u la...cb~

after sch went to plaza for kfc...melvin b'day...

i'll take back my no~

school was fun...lots of fun..~
today got 2 period of dnt...but guess wad..teaacher never come....wooHoo~
so...about 5 of the dnt students(including me),went to f &n lab there and visit them...at first,mrs phua said tt we cannot touch anything and we after awhile must leave....but...we cooked....
i was with jeremy and wenhao group.....help them in their swiss roll and their fried noodle...
so happy la....!!i got 2 years never cook le....and f &n was very FUn today...heeX....and the noodle was damn nice....serious la~....even all of my friends said so...and some f & n students cooking skills lousy than Dnt students...oh mrs phua said tt...hahaX...
after tt is chinese lesson...taking this time to eat the noodle and testing someother people noodlE....yup...and everyone was saying eileen noodle very nice...oh my~...they all r bad...lied to her...and she actually thinks tt her noodle really very nice....is taste-less la....hahaXx..oh...suppose to go com lab in chinese lesson...but i guess ppl care more about the food than going to com lab...then played the "chen yu" game....and the time i know how lousy my "chen yu" is compare to my frens in class....i only know all the easy easy one...and some i dun even know the meaning....recess time....erm...nth much jux went down to the canteen to have a drink...cox i'm super full already...math lesson...do afew math question...then dunno le la...english lesson and history....we played cards...for 2 hours...oh my...and is like a gambling room...cox 3 different groups are playing...and all are playing...is like 5 more days to n level...and my class is like hack care?...hahaX...
was waiting for jeremy to finish his geography lesson to take lrt home...cox my sista took my ezlink and i dun have money to take bus..but he went to math extra lesson...so i went to...did some question...and asked some of the question i dunno in my 5 years series...but i still got lots of question marks...my left brain is like few pieces missing...jux like my heart~Oh...shh!!~dun tell others...L-A-M-E =_=
after finish the extra lesson was 3.30pm...and they wanna play cards....play heartattack....oh...very fun playing with them....they are so funni...and went makan....oh thanks jeremy for that milo...
i wait for u like 2 hours plus jux to go home...dIao~walking home with them is like bringing small kids out...aiyo....they are super duper playful...but really enjoyed the moment we have...today...with the infamous 4E and jeremy gang~

here's something for you all...took this from someone's blog...is very touching...watch it..
the song very nice also....hope to find the chords~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ

6 more days to n level....still not in the mood to study....
really need someone to help me..but.......NO-ONE!~

But those who TRUST in the lord will find their strength RENEWED. Isaiah 40:31

nowadays...during lesson keep on doing worksheet...so sian...but also good la...when do the worksheet,time will pass very fast....i've been very naughty in sch these few days...keep on bullying people...hahaX....
i think people are very interested in seeing ppl st**m....i remember on tuesday i was in 920...and i got nothing better to do...i look down the bus,saw a cab...and i jux said...hey the uncle st**m...then everyone keep looking down..hahaX..then on wednesday,during history lesson,daryl was saying xinhua whine and his hair stand....and i shouted daryl ste*m...and everyone was like...where got?...oh my...my class?my frens?haiya...so pervertic~

TO the special someone~

HAppi BirthdaY..finally 17 le...one more year to M18 movie..woohoo~


MAIN POINT IS.....





sorry for being very..ur so called petty everytime...but actually i'm not angry with you
i'm just feeling very disappointed..feeling so neglected..aiya..i dunno how i feel...but i'm jux not angry
that's why sometimes i'll jux walk off without saying bye or i'll ignore anyone who talk'' to me

cox u used to be so close to me....and everything changed so quickly...u are super duper busy and we seldom talk...even on some sundays,we don even talk to each other...i guess u thought i'm angry with you and i think tt you don wanna talk to me..and u cant be bother abt me anymore...tt's y i don wanna talk to u...but hoping tt u will talk to me....

sometimes wad i said is really not from my heart(but all these are)...like everytime i asked you to f*** off...cox i really dunno wad to say...*i'll learn..not to say anything if i got nothing better to say*
i'm so disappointed when u give empty promises...but really really i never blame you~...jux wanting to know why u did tt when u don like people to give empty promises...last time i do things to hurt you...is to let you know how it feels to be treated the way u treat me sometimes...

looking back...thinking of all the things that happened.........
the clementi days....when u r everytime late...and i miss that lemon papaya i drink everytime...but now no more le....went back yesterday to buy...i think the stall change owner le....so i went to the market there buy...but the taste not the same....and i don like it.....cause is so sour....~ EeyerR!!~
missing the wugui that u bought for me...both are dead...

but i don wan our friendship to be dead or turn sour
i jux wan everything to be as it is last time...~
and i'm hoping tt you will listen to my problems...cox is not easy for me to share things from my heart to the others...and you are lucky or unlucky to be that someone i can share with....almost everything~

thank you for treating me so nice and you spoil me for being so..
thanks for everything you've given....all those treats,gifts,love...and lots lots lots...that i dunno wad iszit...but i can feel it...seriously....and u makes me feel tt at least tt's someone who care about me...
cox i'm always alone at home...and talking to non living things..or talking to imaginary frens i can think of...
you really have been a great fren to me
and i wan2 express my thanks to you and tell you how important you r to me in my life
and i dun wanna lose a good fren like you...

is kidda difficult to say everything out from my heart...takes me lots of courage to do so k...and i dun dare to tell you face to face...i think all these is abt 3/4 of wad i wanna tell you....i'll tell u the rest when the time is right...and typing all these things makes my pillow all wet....sorry i love to cry can..anw,

hope you enjoy ur bday celebration....
sorry i couldnt pass the watch to you personally...but still hope you will like it...
if u don like it...i'll cry until die...cox i didnt eat lunch and dinner for the whole week to buy tt watch...
actually there are watches that are much more nicer...but sorry i cannot afford it..is like 200 plus...anw,tt's not important
tt time i told u i have the idea how to design the gift...but i dun have the money...
but i never expect evan to have the same idea as me..mayb not all the same...
but is the box inside with ur fav !~at least,i fulfilled how i wanna design tt gift...

hahaX..this song for u...~

thanks for all the sweet memories~
and you still own me chilli crab pasta...i don care how long i have to wait to eat tt...
tt's a promise of a lifetime...~chikalaka~

school today was boring---fun---tiring!!!~
heng today don have grooming check...even miss ong saw me never say my hair long...hahaX...
first lesson didnt learn anything for chemistry...then went for pe lesson...today's pe okok only...not really fun la...only the first 15 mins and the last 5 mins...yup...first 15 mins we need to run 3 rounds...but i only run 2 rounds...today o level prelim and the guys shouted cheer again..hahaX...
the rest of the time went to see some of my frens play basketball...cox i don feel like playing anything...until around 9.55am,1 sec two class and our class have a rubi match..and our class won...jensen the funniest...he go bang the sec 2 guy...and they all very violent...pushing here and there..hahaX...then after the match over,we went to the canteen...all chinese...cox the malays have mother tongue lesson...we also have la...but the teacher we also hack care de...10 mins later,we took the lift up to 4th floor...17 people inside..hahaX...and the lift stop at every story...thought got teacher...but heng never...but guess wad??
reach the 4th story...MS ONG!!~such a bad day...kanna caught using lift...
17 people took the lift...only 13-14 kanna caught....the rest walked off...then jensen stay in the lift go 6th floor then walked down from there...kaO!!~
then we kanna 30 push up la...then from 4th floor,go the 1st floor...run up to 7th floor...then back to the first floor again...then up to the 4th floor again....so super tired....
the rest of the day super tiring...until last lesson,played cards for half an hour then released le lor...no extra lesson for physics today...so went plaza for awhile...then go home le....

oh IP zone got new jacket....very nice...i like the white 1...but is 29 bucks...i got no money...hahaX....cox i wanna save money for 2 chalet,roller blade,i still own my mother 220+ dollars...haiz....broke le la...think don wanna spend so much in chalet...esp in fren's bday de...cox nth much to do in downtown..
hope n nevel quickly end..hahax...so i can have lots lots lots fun....but i still don have mood to study...my physics and math...lots of question i dunno how to do le...my brain not in use le la...
broke my guitar string...i jux wanna play romans 16:19 says..then i hit the strings with my finger...then...broke the string lor...gonna asked uncle samuel to help me get the string when i have the money...so sad la...today super bad day...i cant play my guitar le...aRGHHHhHhhHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~everything's wrong in life now.............

wo zhi dao ni wo duo mei you cuo...zhi shi wang le zhe meng tui huo...
xin zhe dan dan gei de chen nuo...quan bei shi jie bu le kong
wo zhi dan wo men duo mei you cuo...zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai que

no grooming check for today....cox raining and no need to go parade square..wooHoo!!~
and guess wad...out of 4 lesson,we attended one only......cox the rest of the teacher never come!~
haix..this is so disaster..!!~
mother tongue lesson,went to 4D watch a movie..since the chinese there invited us there...hahaX..
english...obviously never listen la...thinking thinking and keep on thinking about something*
and chan siping kanna scold by me again...super angry with her...keep on saying my hair long...so shout at her today...very very angry ma~
recess someone paid half of the amount of my food...hahaX...sosososo good!!~
see god sending someone everyday to provide me with food...even though i didnt ask for it...hahaX..
math...aiya..i dunno wad to do...last lesson jux slack and i still thinking~ thinking~ thinking about that something...
school release at 12.30pm...and was raining...walking home while raining...thinking back~
about SEC 1....everyday playing baskeyball after school...and when raining,we are still playing...at block 8,half court,214...and the old wsss building...we are playing with water also...pouring water on everyone
i remember got 1 time walking home from wsss...while raining heavily...i was feeling super cold...and no one was walking there....feel so lonely and...VERY lonelY!!~hahahaXx...super cold...freezing like hell...like i'm going to die...but..never die leh...too bad!~
i'm gonna sick soon...now sore throat le....hao sian ar...n level yan dao le....i very lazy to study leh..
haix haiz haixxxxxXXZZz

wooHhoo!!~school was fun fun FUN!!!!~early in the morning i scolded miss chan...she siao said my hair long.....kao...my hair long then wad's urs?...serve her right kanna scold...hahaX....
well...our class..crazy for today...hall at 3rd story...classroom at 4th story...and we took the lift up...i think 13 people inside...and they r pushing here and there...then eng lessosn...nah...sux..!!~then pe lesson...woohoo!!~FUN!!~we know tt today got O level prelim...so we got some plan during the running...WE SING while jogging for 2 rounds...we sang we will rock you and we are the champion...hahaX...so fun...even thought i didnt sing..cox i got sore throat!!~sad~... went to train my leg...cox weako ar...hahaX//after pe...we went to the canteen for awhile then took the lift up again...heng never got caught,but faruoni was about to press the lift... physics...and is time to use my brain...and it did let me recall alot...cox i've been slacking alot after prelim...recess...we took the lift up again...hahaX...so lucky that we used the lift for 3 times today never kanna from teacher..cox yesterday when using lift going for extra lesson,we kanna caught on the 2nd story...then we waited for another lift to go to our class...math lesson...make me think think think....using CD period to do my math too...last lesson vincent seah never come..
tomorrow got grooming check...and i know i tt i sure will kanna de....but i have excuse...take me to the principal if u all wan2...i know wad to say already...hahaX...
wo let 90cents for tmr...hahaX...wonder will i survive

the stoopid box very ugly...i thought of buying a____ box and put tt thing inside...design it with.._________...hahhaX....very silly idea...and i don have money...try to use my next week 10 bucks...all for ur sake..i don eat leh...i hope u know who u r...hahaX...anyone sponser me money to use my silly ideas?hahaX...sch fren rawk ma..

chalet chalet CHALET!!~cant wait~...we'll be planning lots of things...but i gonna be broke...cox now different gang they have chalet...and total got 4...think i will be going 4 two only la....

today...everyone start to warm up le...and i think tomorrow pe lesson gonna be so damn fun...cant wait~
during flag raising...our class very sian sian de...infact the whole school la..we take so long to stand up...and hahaX...our planned for not to stand up when teacher asked to go back class...we failed...hahaX...but yesterday we did it....we were the last 5 to leave if not everytime is first 5...
when we were ask to go back class,the ong saw the two gals in our class never tuck in shirt...so asked my class and 4D to go back...guess wad we did....run away...then vincent seah go and asked us go back....hahaX...some of the people and i jux simply don care and walk off...
beumon make de dunno wad very tasty..very nice...the fnn people have cooking today///hahaa..
recess never makan la...save money...i totally broke until begging people for food le...
math lesson never pay attendtion,english when miss chan wake me up...i don gib a damn,jux keep on sleeping...history lesson,listen mp3...the kan lesson very very very boring...
then talking about chalet stuff again...wad to buy there...and the food...oh...i cant eat seafood...no prawn,no crab, no stingray....cry la...but nevermind...i can eat lots lots lots of chicken wing...lalallaalXx...people sponser 100 chicken wing...miss chan sponser 100 bucks for the chalet....we booking 3 hut at siloso there...now price increase le...we gonna pay 20 bucks for all the food...not only for bbq nia...for 2nd day 3 meal and 1st day dinner////bcox of miss chan going...we cannot pon sch on friday...we'll check in at 3.30pm...sch release at 12.30pm then straight away go home...then meet up frens to go there lor...
went to senja grand to...my fren buy things...then hahaX.....then got 1 fren buy 1 get 1 free ma...so the free 1 gib me eat...lolX...
oh ya...i went to math extra lesson today...and is quite good....help my brain to think and to recall the math formule...yupyupyup...after school...went to ntuc...my fren treat me a packet of tibits...hahaX...i didnt beg...that fren jux buy...so good...~
i never study my history today...feeling quite tired...tomorrow ba...and friday...i gonna skip my dnt lesson and back home for history revision...

sch today quite boring la...din know wad to do there...cox from morning till 2.30pm,we only got work to do for 1 period...mother tongue 2 period teacher never come....so i guess i slept for half an hours...then rest of the time...listen to fren de mp3 lor...i still cant figure out why their tian tian ye ye verse different from mine f.i.r song....hahaX...english do the english comprehension...then recess////erm...recess today like kidda quiet leh...only when buying the food got lots of rubbish to talk nia...chemistry teacher never come also..then we stay in class talk lor...if not nth to do le..math...aiya practice paper again...social studies?out of my exam list le...hahaX...today like never study at all lor...kaO~2.30pm then release le...no extra lesson today~
oh ya...today the hot topic in school is.."hey ur msn yesterday can use ma?"ANS.."cannot leh"...the other person..."...mine can leh"...
alot of people cannot log in to msn yesterday....only afew can nia

after sch went to ten mile makan...then around 4.15pm leave tt place....went to lot1 to buy something...
actual price more than half a hundred...but manage to get discount so is more than my weekly allowance...
so now u all noe...my weekly allowance is less than half a hundred...please stop saying that i'm rich...
I"M NOT!!!~

well exam gonna start soon...3 more weeks to go...and i wanna do better than my prelim result...
wanna prepare earlier..(my so called earlier la)anw, N level is quite chicken feet la...so no need so early la
erm....get back my report book...i got the 12th in class....so omg la...last time i got 6th...now i got 12th...
*&^%$#@....
well i think the position in class is not important....cox the first failed her english....chinese good only ma....get 90+ also useless....get 1st also cannot promote...hahaX...too bad..

some of my frens already planned for the holidays activities le...hahaX...think it gonna be fun...
on the 13-15 october(we pon sch on friday all go chalet)got our 4d and 4E class chalet...but only chinese only...and our class organised de...we invited 4D to join us...no need to pay for the chalet....only for the food,10 bucks...at sentosa...coasta sand...ya...they planned alot of games...and we gonna play amazing race there?...er...loser have to...i forgotten...hahaX...if i lost the game then i tell u...
then on the 13-15 november,another chalet in downtown...erm...one of my fren birthday...wooHoo...!!!~
sch holidays still have the music producer course...and mayb i'm taking drum course with my frens...oh...saving money now...so that i have enough to spend during my holidays...hahaX...then i wanna learn how to roller blade also..cox i dunno how....need to buy 1 also....

i left less than 10 bucks for this week....sadsadsad!!!!~

first day of schooll re-open...never go sch...went to hospital...NUH...for the doctor to check my ear...i attracted alot of doctor attendtion...hahaX....i think around 4-5 doctor come and look at my ear....then when the doctor in charge finish le...the rest of the doctor still very interested to know about my ear...hahaX...hospital so fun...lolx
oh ya...the operation on 9th october....woohoo...then still need everyweek go 1 time for injection....around 6-8 times....oh sorry ear...i dun wan this to happen to u...but wad is done,i cannot do anything...if i know all this would happen,i WONT Do tt stoopid pircing to my ear.....*hint*all tt happened...already happen...cannot take it as if it never happen at all......

before going to the hospital,i went to my ah ma house...they were talking about jeremy(my cousin) family problem...their parents wanna divorce...and the mother wan the 3 children...this is totally wtf....i think she shouldnt have wan the children,she's just using them as a tools or maid...she never take care of her children...jeremy have to iron their clothes,change the bedsheet...jeslynn have to wash all the clothes,mop the floor..even buying food also the kids buy for their mother...this totally breaks my heart into thousands of pieces...jeremy and jeslynn is my closest cousin in my father side family...seen them grown up...and they are also my childhood play mate...esp jeremy together with my sista...we r always together when we were young...jeslynn even cried...and tell his father tt she don wanna follow her mother....both jeremy and jeslynn said they wanna follow ah ma....oh my!~they are still so young...bro 13,sista 11,the younger 1 i think 3 ba....
they wanna fight for the 3 kids back...hired a lawyer already...so i think this gonna be a great show...and tt bitch said tt...if we(as in my father side family) take the 3 children....she gonna commit suicide...jump of building?jump into the sea?eat panodol like wad she did 5 years ago together with beer?oH mY?....go do it man!who cares....she's totally a freak...treat her kids this way......if i withness how she treat her kids....disaster gonna happen to her....called my whole gang down whack her until she half died....and the stoopid father of hers went to my grandparents hse and scold them and my uncle....VULGARITIES!!!hahahaX...they INVITED police to SEND him off......hahahaX...but no interesting...if i know about this matter earlier,i can check out where he stay...then when he go home...at near his block there can play trick on him...hahaX....ask some fren to join along also can de ma...anw,he also dunno who we are...haiz...my kelian de cousin...

tomorrow sch le...erm...hope to have fun with the inFAMOUS....cox i've been super bored this few days...and someone keep on disturbing me...pissing me off.........

finally....N'level chinese and social studies OVER!!~wooHoo!!~no need to study this two subjects le...such a headache subject which i cannot really handle...but i did my best studying...not real best but last min best...heeHeEhEeXxX!!!!~gonna study for the rest of the subject soon...esp the subjects i'm weaker in...like Dnt,chemistry and history...although history and dnt..i don know anything at all...i'll try to study...then the result slip grade will be nicer...don have ungrade...is really kidda impossibe but let's hope la....anyway paid money for the exam already...at least study abit...afew paper cost almost like 40bucks...for 1 subject...wah...must write more...bu ran hen lang fei...hahahahaXx...after september holidays,then 3 more weeks to all the subjects n level exam le...so gonna work hard...must remind me to study leh...if not i forgot!!

school re-open de first day i'm NOT going to school....gonna go to hospital for the doctor to check my EAR and....depends on wad the doctor wanna do with my ear la...if he/she wan2 cut off...then i will have no ears
la....hahaXx....but is impossible la...even the doctor wan2 cut...i wont allow...hahaX...then after tt...will make a appointment for the operation la...yup...FRIENDS please help to tell teacher if u happen to read THIS!!!~THANKS!!!!~

TOMORROW who wanna go edmund's stall makan msg me k...?around 6-7pm for dinner...

friday...?should i go for the night cycling??.....wonder if i have the strength...hahaX...my legs are weak..esp my knees...very weak...think i will go ba...if not i'll bored to death at home...everyday alone at home...anw,kenny kor kor got go...then the night cycling wont be bored le..cox i don really like mixing with the youth...i prefer mixing with people older than me....but even though the youth some are older than me...they are still so.......

hahaX....u wanna wad i think about them....i wont tell!!...

i never study my chinese today....!!!!!!!!!!~
sorry gracie never accompany u go find renfred...cox only him and his cousinx....so paiseh....srysrysry~~
my game last less than 3 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

friday...i got no mood to study....then was...writing my chapter 2 notes...but only manage to finish half...was very boring at home.....talk to wenhao on the phone almost 1 and a half hour....dotdotdot......keep on ignoring me..

sat...i been writing my notes since 11am...the social studies...haix...and i write until 9pm...not all the way la...think got rest for less than 2 hours la...ya...and...i think i learn abit only...got sec 3 topic...2,3,5,6,7
sec 4 topic 1,4....then i cannot absorbed all ma...so i planned to study chapter 2,3...and sec 4 chapter...guess 1 of them will come out ba...my middle finger...pain pain pain after writing for so many hours...actually wanna go maxwell eat de...with kenny...but in the end never..got he got another funtion to attend...
so never go lor...
u r still ignoring me...even though u said u r not...

toking on the phone with the friendly guy wenhao...hahaX...lame.."zhen de meh?"lame shit~~

going to church tomorrow...and...ZZzZzz...kidda boring...think going to study after tt..